"We Knights value individuality. We are a gathering of individuals, and we do not unite. But I want to believe that through the experience we’ve gained from many, many battles, we have formed a bond between us. I want to believe we’ve become comrades with the same will. No, that we have become like a family."
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heavyliesthecrown
day 78
Date: 2024-05-08 04:02 (UTC)Re: day 78
Date: 2024-05-08 04:50 (UTC)What could you possibly want? And just what sort of trick is this supposed to be now?
Re: day 78
Date: 2024-05-08 05:09 (UTC)I'm sorry, for everything that's happened between us.
I want to apologize for always being the worst person I could be toward you.
I don't want to do it anymore... I want to say I'm sorry.
Re: day 78
Date: 2024-05-08 05:17 (UTC)A really... long moment. He isn't sure what to say or if he can believe her totally.
. . . ]
. . . Why now? What is different now?
Re: day 78
Date: 2024-05-08 05:24 (UTC)And, I thought of you and all the shared negativity we've had. All the bad emotions. All the... sudden feeling like I need to be a jerk or that I need to work myself up into an emotional wreck when I see you, or have to think of you.
...and I want to let it go.
And I can't let it go without apologizing for all the bad things I've done. That were wrong.
So... I'm sorry.
Re: day 78
Date: 2024-05-08 17:33 (UTC). . . . . . . . . . ]
I see.
[Quietly. He sighs after a moment.]
I understand that you are apologizing. And, while I cannot say how earnest you are being, I appreciate it.
But, while I will accept your apology, I still do not trust you for a myriad of different reasons. Actions speak much louder than any words that might be offered. Anyone can say sorry, but without actual improvement or intent, then it is little more than lip service and hollow words.
[Not spoken with any accusation. Just honestly.]
I hope it is more than that. And I hope that you reconcile with yourself, and find happiness for our time here in the pasture.
And so, I wish you good luck in your endeavors.
[With that though, he will disconnect.]